can someone tell me the reason for living? tired of being sorry:D

Thursday, August 30, 2007

hellooooooooooooooo

i forgot where i went after school on tues! didn't go for wednesday's trng,sick. yinhui house and home. today, after school, yinhui house again, did some nonsense. eat and home, im serious very tired of blogging alrdy.): hahahha. for the sake of updating, i shall(:

tmr will be tchers day celebration. sians........

lalalala~

11:39 PM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

hello):

here in the IT lab for home econs! managed to finish up my brochure!! (: yesterday was alright uhs..peerleader meeting...ohwell, it's just 4days away!!!! i die die wanna change group luhs!!!! )): training was pretty tough.! gym sucks. watched the sec1 play court work for 1 hour! went to coffee shop for dinner with rach.grace.wendy & kexin(:

RUZAINI!ignored me yesterday): lol.

homed!PW sucks big time.
sorry rachel,thanks anyway(:

10:54 AM

i'm really tired): finally finished the goddamn PW powerpoint & HOMEE. sighs. blog tmr(:

nights!trng's killing me soon.

2:34 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

hello.

Went to angmokio this morning. Had alot of fun luhs! It was like a babies paradise & there was like alot of food? =.= Each family bring a type of dish for 30 ppl...so there is food for like 90 people? i dunno man! lol. GIDDEON is god damn it cute!

After that..went to orchard, wait for my sis to get her stuff and home. I slept in her car..totally tired. Reached home and out with wendy and rach to bugis. Met grace at eunos. And totally took neos twice =.= and home. Okay. I saw some people i shouldnt see at all. home at like 10.30.

i don't know why my heart was like...totally dead for that few minutes, but now?i guess it started beating but still unconcious.? =.= I had been thinking of you lately. If nothing happened..it would be like 5mth11days lerh? okay..i know..everything's over. Im just regretting though i know there's nothing to regret about. but im feeling so..lost, thinking about those past sweet memos though they're really short. but its the contents in the memo that counts. SIGH.im feeling really really sad.takecare.

10:55 PM

Saturday, August 25, 2007

HELLO:D
hellohellohello:D

Today woke up pretty late, studied in the morning! Pretty amazing eh! yeah! But i did do my work okay. Went down to petal to look for wendy, rach and kexin to play ball:D I was god damn late! sorry! Played.. UNTIL! some guys come and chappo our court! tamade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. They are so notman! haha! Just because the court we use have net!!)): then can hear the CHOP sound ehs! idiot.

Ben&co came down. Played match with boonhui.ben.tweed.rach.wendy.kexin. 4vs3! yeah we won! hahha! they did pumpings! Did dumb things with ben.! Like throwing my slippers up, to make it stuck on the basketball ring there? =.- then tried doing hand stand? =.= played ABC(: i WON!!!!!!! though i was like...so far from him! hah! he's called XIAOZHU! for the forfeit! lol! IM TIRED):

Tomorrow will be going to a.m.k for my grandmother's birthday!(:

TODAY WAS FUN:D BASKETBALL IS LOVED!!!!!!!!!!! :D
i love doing dumb things! & i dont know why my voice is uber high today. kexin and rach and wendy keep saying me!)))): LOL. quite funny though. maybe there's some helium* gas in the air.

11:05 PM

pictures taken in GENTING(: my sis now then send me):

(sister's rom. i werent there): )

12:46 PM

Friday, August 24, 2007

hello.

today:D
Cute ehs, for homeroom, we did math & for math we did some math-unrelated things. Planning of time? haha:D I guess it'll be useful? Chinese test was difficult and the rest of the periods were like free periods again, thanks to ms zan.!

After school slacked around, walked around taking dumb pictures. Slacked in class, fooled around..play. Science remedial, listened nothing. Missed training till 4.30pm. Went for training for 1hr and slacked at mama with grace&joyce. Pei joyce go home, and went home. oh well.

I D K what to say already. I guess i wouldn't be giving a damn anymore..):

Tomorrow&sunday, will be at my grandmother's place, gathering. Monday's a new week & the following week the "holiday like no holiday" week. First 3 days PL camp and 5th,netball 1 day outing. ohwell, i dont know how man.

[zaijian]

11:11 PM

Thursday, August 23, 2007

hellooooo.!

Today was pretty alright, i guess. Even though it was made up of all the two-periods subject. Had science test too. The smart me, left the science notes under the table. Apparently didnt study. Just hope for a good pass. Math was on a new chapter, hoping to cope with it somehow. Geography was boring, just forgotten about it totally. Mothertongue was talking session? That tanglaoshi also don't care derh. LOL. English was free period. for about 2weeks, all our eng/lit periods were all free periods. wow..that's alot to cover you know!

After school, slacked around,went to library to find those people doing PW. Met grace&co at void deck to slack. Headed off to tam to meet sharon. Then walked around then went off back to school area to find my classmates. Ohwell, went back with them, met my mummy and my eldest sis and my dad for dinner at 85 then back home. Rarely my whole family is at home. It's been a long long time since i last saw my eldest sister. She's getting married on 24th NOV? Nice date ehs. (:

Ohwell, i'm pure tired. There's chinese test tomorrow. I need to do art. I need to do math. They're just killing me silently. There's training tomorrow,sighs....! dreadful of trainings, seriously.

byes, off to do my work. god damn it please. haix.

9:36 PM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

oh hello once again.

Today can't get anymore sian-ner. Imagine 5 free periods? It may sound really fun but you'll just sit there and NUA/ROT/DECOMPOSE. First 2 was art, made to do some worksheet, shading again..damn boring..never do..sleep. Then it was music? boring. After recess was math test, screwed up a little. The last 3 periods were free periods. 1 Lit and 2 Eng, ms ZAN! )): we're failing soon.

After school was training. Bok got us our shoes. It feels really different from the white shoes. But still, i think it's damn ex. Training was GYM! ): and abit of playing? shooting, own amends. Then down to coffeeshop with seetleei, met jas. played with chillies. Went to sheng siong to buy seaweeds, took 228 1 BIG round, with ahleei. lol.

Homed. Being kp by someone? My fault la hor. I'm so going to hate tomorrow. I feel like quiting netball.

11:13 PM

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

hello.

im tired&sleepy):

Played basketball during PE. It was damn boring, but the way peiyan played made my laugh like mad.hahas! Recess was boring and homeecons was worse. IT lab for course work and project but ended up sleeping there in the air-con room. I slept so soundly for about three periods? Back to class for mothertongue. Had chocolates,ferrero:) for getting full marks for tingxie! LOLs!laughs...! English was free period. Math was quite awake already! CME was bingo time.lol.

After school, totally loner. =.= no where to go uhs.!): xuanning had training. Joyce have tuition. minpei and co have remedial. shermaine went home. jamie went out? =.= went to class to slack with my class guys. ohwell, they're funny uhs!(: slackkkkkkkk....then went to bubbletea shop. Alot of funny things happened. LOL. brad saw the pearl that chiachern shoot..as a bird? and told zhan..did you see a bird fly across?!?! like =.= searching for the "flying bird". chiachern laughing like mad. ohkay.thats damn lame. went to reservoir to slack then went home! lalalalalalala~ art due tomorrow. math test tomorrow. IM SO GOING TO DIE. ):

& i'm getting more and more reluctant to go for trainings already. I'm not into netball that much. My sep hols is packed): veryyyyyyy packed.! ): PL CAMP): all for today(:

SCREW YOU!

8:28 PM

I'M SORRY. i don't know what to say already. i really hope you understand and sorry.i know,im the bastard one.there's nothing much to explain already. i'm at fault, i know. DUIBUQI.

1:01 AM

Monday, August 20, 2007

hello.Weren't posting for the past few days. Really tired and busy):

What about saturday...rather fun? It all started with nothing to do at home. Couldnt find anyone as bored as i were,then wendy was the free one? Met her up at petal mac, supposingly to study, but i was 42mins late.haha! Suppose to study, ended up unproductive): Decided to go watch fire works at Marinabay. Went to wendy's house to take camera?lols, no battery, waited there for it to charge since we had no where to go? Wendy slept like some pig!& i was watching her sleep? Weird ehs! met qingzhan at their house area and bus/trained down to cityhall. Walked the whole of marina square to find a nice spot to watch the fireworks, met up with rachel for awhile,she brought us to the nicenice toilet & she went off to meet ahleei and jaslene. wendy,qingzhan and i, cabbed down to east coast park. LOL. Marina was really crowded that we decided not to watch the fireworks anymore. Had dinner at the hawker centre and walked down to mac.? on the way...we saw some fireworks. !!!! we could have saw it from there! wendy fell): havoc. met shermaine and her soka people. Went to the breakwater area and sand to sit and slack. emo. That night's stars were pretty! alotttttt.alottttt. bus-ed back home.

pretty long essay of saturday?(:

Sunday...i totally rotted at home. Slacking doing work and sleeping. Was suppose to go down to Tampines for popular and get the iron fixed? cause i dropped it.lols. ): totally boring!

Monday.....today!
History teacher weren't here. Some bitch took over! I seriously think she's insane. Apparently, her name is don't know what VILUAN?or whatever, xuanning said she has a monkey face! haha! She closed our back door? corridor windows? and switched off all the fans? How insane can she get lah? =.= and she changed the speed of the fan to 1. Cause she said we were noisy, she off it again. =.=

recess was boring. xuanning and i went again, alone. The others slacked in class=.= xuanning&me=LONERS. Was with the guys, but they left us in the canteen):

I don't know what happened already? Science, SIAN CLASS. sleeping lesson. geo was damn sad. i passed my geo common test by 1 mark. ))): 26/50 disappointment is all i get. yinhui top the class, shockingly. I was really surprised, jiayou bah yinhui! ni you potential! hahahah! PW was damn boring. & chinese was ting xie, okay. english...free period again. ms zannnn!!!! where are you, you said you will be back today! ): we're going to fail english already):

training was god damn sian. joyce!shermaine!grace!kim! all not here)): left with me and minpei! our cliques leh...left with 2): weights training was suck shit. Actually alright lah. Then it was pairwork on court. Training was rather light today, but still, tiring. I feel so lethargic.

Coffeeshop with minpei): Jaslene came to meet us with her wrapped up leg! takecare oh! Talked alot to her too. Ohwell, thanks anyway:] HOMED.and my 3rd sis hog onto my room's com. But my sis com is nice to use? cause her screen bigger than the one in my room! This explains why this post is soooo long? ((((:

I want my happy life back):

10:12 PM

Friday, August 17, 2007

can my life get any better.?doubting.

Today was really lethargic. I keep sleeping in class and i'm never paying attention when streaming is just, 1 month plus away? like what the f/

After school, went to kopitiam for lunch as today's friday, more time! netballers are loved. Back to school to slack with joyce<3 & down for training. Today's training was tamade tiring. Weights are like so f. heavy now? I'm not like last time, i'm not myself anymore, just weaker. Netball,i don't know why the hell i came into netball for? I guess i just made my life stopped at a dead end without knowing the cause is netball? =.= i'm starting to hate netball,no interest. fuck.

i'm really very tired.i don't know what am i doing):

what's the aim in life?

12:27 PM

Thursday, August 16, 2007

hellos.

Havent been posting muchs nowadays. Away from the computer, which is a good sign! :] Shows that i'm not addicted to the computer and including the tv!:] But i also don't know what i've been doing? out i guess? ha! trainings resume as per normal already. weights is getting suck-ier. sighhhhhhh! studies are killing me big shit and that sucks.

problems arising but aint leaving in any way. cant it be settled once and for all?

basketball leads my life, not netball. condemn by bok,something that demoralised me totally. on the verge of the 'quiting' mindset.

end.

11:19 PM

Monday, August 13, 2007

fcuked tup life, CONTRADICTING.

fullstop, the end.

10:26 PM

Saturday, August 11, 2007

whatever.pls.i dont want to care already.my problems are enough,i dont need you to add on for me.

out with zhan these few days.never fail to cheer me up though. :]fireworks was pretty.janae was happy.with you arnd!:]thanks!

bok wouldnt be putting me down i guess.sighs.tmr i will be there for nth,again.

signing off.

5:54 PM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

hello.

past few days have been really fun:D cross-country was tiring,i swear. 4.3km! i ran my heart out,but didnt manage to get top10, infact top20. alrights...then went to tm. then safra,played pool:D tue's was bball-ing.yeah.i wasnt really in the mood. actually,it was netballers.met canoeist..and others. my mood was off.

i don't know what to say already.so many people knows about it.why not just tell the whole world about it. i know,it's my fault,all along.it's forever my fault.being scolded even at this point of time by your friend. how i feel,you don't seem to care.i'm just nothing,nothing to you.i initiated it,i bear the consequences.i know what i want now.i wont bother you anymore,be happy.

I'M TIRED,TIRED OF everything.

12:46 AM

Monday, August 06, 2007

HELLO:D

ytd went for sher's bbq. pretty fun:D

1 word for today=SUCK.

science class test was alright?knew abit here and there...anyhow.! history test?flunked the 15marks structured questions? i guess the rest was alright?

Austrailian team came down.they're PRO. then bbt shop... slacked. & wendy out of a sudden SCREAMed? so i screamed? so did FENNI?LOL.....! coz of nothing? =.=

rest went back, rach&i stayed to talk:D cheerup LOVE!!!:D
homed.

okay,i don't know what i want? i feel like, something's faded, to be honest. i really feel so weird looking at those sad posts, in school when i see them? do you know what it feels like? its like some f.shit okaye.we used to be so called hi-bye friends or even just a smile?? now, not even an eye contact. &its like, (A) used to be quite alright with me? but now i don't even know how to talk to (A) at all? it just seems to different.not like before. and i know, my friends come first?my piority goes to them i guess? feeling neglected? i d k. im like yes.no.yes.no. contradicting. i know im so gonna die after i publish this,but it's just what i feel. feeling to shag whenever it comes to this.fuck.

10:47 PM

Saturday, August 04, 2007

HELLO=D

thurs.
Totally a 2 periods day. I guess i was sleeping for 6 periods out of 10?! xuanning&yinhui came to my house.and blahs.!they very jiao.!

friday.
didnt go trng.was with nic&leo for the whole day?go home pretty early and went to AMK at around 7pm with my sister.janae was being punished!lol.cry like mad.stayed there. talked to her for 1hr47mins31seconds. (:

sat.
left for amk to petal mac.studied.with wendy&grace. rach came later.then grace&wendy went to work. me n rach....studyyyyy...until 6+++ going 7? then played ball till 8. then went back to mac to slack.! zi lianed abit=D and home.

PICTURES=D

ohkay,see the DO project?xuanning thought it was a bra!??!?! lOl! and went...bra? project? LOl.

[LOVESSSS]

[picture of rach since she has a pic of me=D]

sorrydear.

11:08 PM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

hellohello.

Feeling really sick. Went to school. Art was pretty hard, i had no inspiration at all! I didn't know how to draw the manupulation drawing?..so chim uhs! ha! Music was boring, science was alright? Cause i wasn't really listening! &i scored 7.5 for the bloody sungei buloh test! ha! upon 10. my migrative bird was an eagle! wrongggg! & i thought an egret was a baby eagle! ruzaini asked cher and was damn paiseh?!HAHA! :D egret.

recess.blahs!HELLOPANDA!!!!!:D

math was in com lab.mscarol!gave us some shit test when i cant even log in?!ace learning sucks. then it was..?erm.lit and eng.3 periods straight. boring uhs! then went to mac. with sher&co. then home. went to the doc. okay. no PE/CCA for 1 week.how nice?! =.=

my beloved sister damn cute uhs!she bought chocolate, and made some strawberry choco and choco flakes?hahahaha:D she's so into this type of things now uhs?!?! pretty weird.!its nice though! she's cute!:D shall help her with her blogskin.!

okay..medicine is making me pretty sleepy.this sucks!i cant sleep late, cause i'll fall asleep so soon!))))):

rach.seetleei.jaslene.grace.sharon&i are sick? pretty same timing ehs?hahahah:D
shermaine.grace.joyce.&me didnt go for training today:D inclusive of rach.!hahahaha!:D seperate reasons.& the taste of medicine sucks big shit.

NIGHTS:D the medicine's taking effect)))):

9:04 PM